12:41 AM



12:01 PM


Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I Love You more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I Love You, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will Love You
Until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song,
I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I Love You, I Love You,
Until the end of time

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will Love You, until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will Love You, I will Love You

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will Love You
Until my dying day


12:55 AM



1:27 AM



10:31 AM

坏事为什么未必那么坏呢？请不要在这里拽坏事变好事之类的通俗辩证法，塞内加的理由见于一句精辟之言：“何必为部分生活而哭泣？君不见全部人生都催人泪下。”

叔本华有一个类似说法：倘若一个人着眼于整体而非一己的命运，他的行为就会更像是一个智者而非一个受难者了。哲人之为哲人，就在于看到了整个人生的全景和限度，因而能够站在整体的高度与一切个别灾难拉开距离，达成和解。塞内加是说到做到的。他官场一度失意，被流放到荒凉的科西嘉，始终泰然自若。最后，暴君尼禄上台，命他自杀，同伴们一片哭声，他从容问道：“你们的哲学哪里去了？”

蒙田更为人熟知，他说过：“每一个人的形体都承载着全部人的状况。”“登上至高无上的御座，仍只能坐在屁股上。”

《慰藉》北京 □周国平

12:05 AM

THE TAROT'S DEATH CARD, key #13 of the Major Arcana, does not mean physical death. Rather, the Death card portrays symbolic death-a change or transformation. Often, it heralds the end of a familiar or more comfortable mode. It conveys a release which is necessary for growth and expansion. Perhaps it even brings a whole new set of principles which will guide you spiritually, emotionally, psychologically or financially. Joseph Campbell, author of A Hero with A Thousand Faces, describes times of personal change as periods when "The familiar life horizon has been outgrown; the old concepts, ideals, and emotional patterns no longer fit; the time for the passing of a threshold is at hand." The sunrise depicted in the background of the Death card holds the promise of the transformation which is about to take place: the death of the old self, but also the dawning of a new day. The Death card is a cue that you are at a "threshold"-a crossing into a new phase, unbounded by the past.


If you are casting the cards in a Tarot reading for another person, as a sensitive reader, you should always address this card immediately when it appears in a reading, and then go back to the rest of the reading. The "Seeker" (who is receiving the reading) should be reassured that the "death" being depicted here is symbolic and transformational, not literal. You might even encourage the individual to discuss his or her reactions to the card, relating it to events that may be occurring in his or her life. The white rose which the Death figures holds is the symbol of rebirth. It also portrays the mystery which surrounds death and transformation. Since there is no Tarot card that specifically portrays birth, we may wonder: Is the Death card really the birth card? The cycles of life, especially birth and death are mysterious and paradoxical. Such mystery is embedded in the Tarot's system. It is meant to challenge you and allow you to explore the meaning of life on a deeper level and from a broader perspective.


When this card appears in your reading, it may be an invitation to embrace change and transformation, especially as it refers to your consciousness or past lifestyle. As such, it represents the quintessential example of "letting go." It's appearance may encourage you as you are clearing out the old and making way for the new. You can even meditate on the Death card in a creative visualization process, allowing its potent imagery to infuse your unconscious with its implied invitation to trust the process of transformation and release. The Death card can assist you in dissolving any negative forces which, knowingly or unknowingly, have taken root in your unconscious mind.


At other times, the Death card may appear in your reading when there are changes which you know you need to make but which you are resisting. The potent Death imagery may serve to remind you that the more you hate something and the more you run from it, the more you are bound to it. You are caught by that which you seek to avoid. Resistance leads to persistence and sometimes that resistance to a problem or situation may actually help to maintain it. The Death card may help you to release resistance. As the symbolism makes contact with your deep mind, it retrieves the more elevated doctrine that shows the meaning of death in a broader context. You can never know what miracles, what healing, what insight or growth might come to you through the difficult times of your life and as you face life's challenges. It is likely that the Spirit flowing through your periods of change or difficulty will bring an expanded life, a greater self or a greater good. The symbolic death that follows may allow you to move forward. For example, perhaps you are holding onto friendships that are no longer supportive or nurturing. Perhaps your career or job is no longer satisfying. The Death card's appearance in your reading may be inviting you to deliberately address the issues at hand regarding these changes. Perhaps Death asks, "Is it time to let go and move on? Can you trust that some greater good will come to you as you surrender to the change?"


It can be one of life's greatest challenges to know when it is time to let go and allow "death" to claim whatever is being embraced. Meditation on the Death card may allow you to discern if, and when, it is time to let go, to mourn and grieve if necessary, and prepares you to be open to whatever is next. The Death card may guide you through a loss or sorrow so that you will not dwell on it excessively.


If you are in the midst of a difficult life challenge, the Death card may also represent the process of spiritual purification in which you gain a deeper understanding of the love of a higher force. That is, often during times of adversity, you may be called to turn to a higher force to guide and sustain you. The Death card challenges you to expand your spiritual beliefs, allowing more of Spirit to touch and heal you. It also holds great hope-the hope that you can start over, embark on a new journey. As we are purged of the old, we are lighter, more receptive-we are freed of the past, ready to start on a new course.


The darkness of winter is upon us; we have pause to contemplate death's message. As we hunker down into the chill, Nature reminds us that death is part of the cycle of life. All the signs of winter, the bare trees, the raw cold, the barren terrain may keep our spirits at bay. But we can keep Death's emblem of transformation in our hearts, allowing it to remind us that there is a sunrise in the horizon and it holds the promise of a new dawn.


Ahh~ The wisdom of the tarot.
Yumyo Shojin - 勇猛精进。

[Nov 2 2007 Friday]

2:36 PM

The Hanged Man card suggests that my alter ego today is the People Pleaser, whose superpower is the 'bubble of denial.' I need to exercise my prerogative, to humor the ridiculous, go out on a limb or remain the pious hold out and risk persecution. So be it. I can't validate the guilty pleasure, hang-up or self-indulgence, but I can rationalize being a willing slave to its pressure or condescend to acquiesce to avoid real suffering, even garner sympathy for my righteous sacrifice or implied martyrdom. Thus I can step it up or hang out, submit to the charade, or sacrifice to what end? But it's the inevitably lame justification that prompts posturing, or playing victim, dumb or innocent. Today I can take it, fake it, quit kidding myself, or put an end to tempting resistance and just grin and bear it. Or, call the bluff -- give them a rope and they'll hang themselves soon enough.

11:50 PM

The Strength card affirms that my alter ego today is the seductive beast of my Animagus, whose superpower is to master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I boldly go... but a willful heart is part of my secret identity. My infinite fortitude is seen by what I do, sacrifice or defy to stand up for what I feel is right, including admitting when I'm wrong, keeping out of it or not dignifying responses provoked by moral cowards and brutes. When resolve is tested I draw on the courage of my true character from the more savage or humble virtues of my natural instincts to maintain objective by composure. This enables me to hold my tongue against bravado, repress claws at empty threats, and not turn tail in pride against passion when it's hard or inconvenient, but to persuade through self-restraint until assimilation is complete or resistance is futile.

11:39 AM
I'll be fine. I'll be fine.

I'll be fine.


9:25 AM

One word - to a wise man.

One lash - to a bright horse.


How many words or lashes do I need?

Aren't these enough already?

12:56 AM

This world is full of suspicions. When people are being too good to be real to you all of a sudden, it may be difficult to keep an open mind and believe that there are indeed some good in reality.

Although it wasn't healthy to be overly suspicious in the long run, it is still 'safe' for one to be on guard, especially when he stands alone in the oh-so-cruel world out there. When we grow suspicious, it is when we let our logical part of the mind open up to the many possibilities behind an action which someone made, be it good or bad. I guess sometimes to be more accurate, it is necessary to let go of the norm that thinking with the mind rather than the heart is a wiser way of handling matters.

Some girlfriends may think that a sweet little gesture that their boyfriends do may hide a dark motive, and some wives may try to deduce some hidden truth beneath the waters when their husbands brought them an expensive gift.

But for some people, the profound chemistry between each other is so strong that they don't even have the most minute amount of suspicions, but rather the burning urge to return the love doubly. Sincerity is very important in the chemistry between people, it is what glues a healthy relationship together. There can be no chemistry but sincerity can make the simplest interaction work for two individuals, while there can be lots of sparkles going between two people, but with no sincerity to hold the relationship up properly there can be no room for intimacy of any kind.

There's a reason why a person doesn't trust his employer despite all the benefits given by the management, including a pretty decent pay which is a good boost in his survival status in the realistic society. And why he would rather put all his heart into expressing the gratitude he felt when his loved one suddenly treated him extremely well and when everything that was done was too good to be true. It was sincerity. At the end of the day, it all boils down to this fact. It is sincerity which touches people.

Hmm...

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