1:18 PM

“ ‘安好家’我们就来讲三个字。我们不是讲家庭吗？‘安好家’这三个字，第一个‘安’。

你看看……房子里一定要有一个什么？有个女人。

你有了房子，没有女人，怎么能够有个家啊？怎么算一个家？

我是买了一套三室一厅的房子，里面没有个女人来，你说怎么是‘安’这个家？

‘安’……‘安’……

你再看看……这么好的一位女性。

我们上次说过了，窈窕淑女到你房子来，你这个家还能不安吗？

你看看，她规规矩矩站在那里。你看到吗？跪着腿在那里。把护住你这个家，把你这个家安排得好好的，服服帖帖。你不安心吗？这是一个让人放心的女人。这是一个家搞得安定的女人。这是一个多美好的女人。也是一个多美好的家庭。”

- 姚淦铭 《百家讲坛· 老子》

江南大学文学院教授 古文献研究所所长 兼任苏州市语言学会副会长

好奇怪的一段话……好像是被妻子psycho出来的稿子。呵呵呵~ ^_^"

10:03 PM

终于又过了一个学期。昨天考完最后一张卷子的时候一点兴奋之感都没有，反而觉得很平淡，甚至有想做作业的变态冲动。那种麻木持续了几个小时就被过去几个星期累积的疲惫吞噬，坏心情莫名其妙从不知何处蹦出来。

甚至到了今天早上起来的时候，心情还是糟透的。

下午和好姐妹一起出去，结果被说今天特别安静，常常摆出一副若有所思的表情。-_-"

我也不知道为什么会这样。刚才还差一点从电动扶梯上跌下来。真的是白痴。

心不在焉啊……





当一个人想要回到那段再也回不去的时光，那种感觉是怎样的呢？


好想哭。

The Cafe in The Sunset

finally got my ears pierced


12:06 AM

Daylight Cast from Window Reveals Old Woman Bent over the Foot of bed Gazing Tenderly on Cloth Doll

床前的回忆满天。

生命就像华丽错觉，它就像一个永远、一滴眼泪、一个世界、一朵玫瑰、一只书签、一首诗篇……

它就像你的明天。

当生命即将来到尾声的时候，连从玻璃窗户折射到床边的阳光也是冰冷的。

用生命最后的温度将时间倒带：七岁、十七岁、二十七岁、三十七岁……美丽、无邪、后悔、无奈……就这样牢牢地，记住每个最小的细节。

从床上轻轻的坐起，然后慢慢的下床。在离开之前回头望望自己那张还在枕头上的面容。不要带走一丝眷恋，不要带走一点不舍。只要记得所有回忆，还有自己最后的那一面。

然后在明天回归漆黑以后，把这一切重活一遍。

如烟
作词：五月天 阿信
作曲：五月天 石头

我坐在床前　望著窗外　回忆满天　
生命是华丽错觉　时间是贼　偷走一切
七岁的那一年　抓住那只蝉　以为能抓住夏天
十七岁的那年　吻过他的脸　就以为和他能永远　

有没有那么一种永远　永远不改变　
拥抱过的美丽都　再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能在脸上撒野　
让生离和死别都遥远　有谁能听见

我坐在床前　转过头看　谁在沉睡　
那一张苍老的脸　好像是我　紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的　和我深爱的　都围绕在我身边
带不走的那些　遗憾和眷恋 就化成最后一滴泪

有没有那么一滴眼泪　能洗掉后悔　
化成大雨降落在　回不去的街
再给我一次机会　将故事改写　
还欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

有没有那么一个世界　永远不天黑　
星星太阳万物都　听我的指挥
月亮不忙著圆缺　春天不走远　
树梢紧紧拥抱著树叶　有谁能听见

耳际　眼前　此生重演　
是我来自漆黑　而又回归漆黑
人间　瞬间　天地之间　
下次我　又是谁

有没有那么一朵玫瑰　永远不凋谢　
永远骄傲和完美　永远不妥协
为何人生最后会像一张纸屑　
还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳

有没有那么一张书签　停止那一天　
最单纯的笑脸和　最美那一年
书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水　
双眼只有无猜和无邪　让我们无法无天

有没有那么一首诗篇　找不到句点　
青春永远定居在　我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋　
笑忘人间的苦痛　只有甜美

有没有那么一个明天　重头活一遍　
让我再次感受曾　挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活　我都不浪费　
不让故事这么的后悔
有谁能听见　我不要告别

我坐在床前　看著指尖　已经如烟

10 如烟 词/阿信 曲/石头

一首歌的时间，走过千转百回生死枯荣，听遍繁华绽放与凋零枯萎，阴晴而又圆缺，转瞬间也从头到尾又再活一遭生命的无常岁月。
可能是这张作品REPEAT重播率最高的一首歌。石头+阿信联合创作出这一首无一句歌词重复的轮回之诗。

从一千个世纪里面放大检视，一个人的一生其实是那么短暂，但靠近去看这其中经历的生老病死，又漫长的如同一首没有重复的歌词。

“这首歌从头到尾歌词都没有半句互相重复。”怪兽佩服道。“阿信作了很大胆的尝试，因为流行乐多半都希望能尽量让歌迷容易记住，他却刻意反其道而行。的确也唯有这种书写方式，才能真正如是描绘出这么大的命题。”

“无猜与无邪”、“笑忘人间的苦痛”、“春天”、“玫瑰”、“生活与生存”，这首歌回忆着专辑中的片断，犹如传说中，当死亡来临的那一刻，眼前会重复一生中所经历的种种画面。

五月天《后青春期的诗》词曲赏析

5:55 PM



11:12 PM



9:20 AM

Resting in the eye of the hurricane and moving on in the mind.

9:09 PM


When you have to beg your family members for a favour, it is an obvious realisation that they are no longer one of your kind.

I have this list of must-do things which I have to complete after my exams. Top of the list is what I hate to do, but at the same time is what I have to do. I can't bear to part with the books, but what can I do when they are from a heartless wretch?

1) Pack all the reading materials borrowed from my (once favourite) auntand return it to her house. Don't have to bother about a thank you card. It's unnecessary. A simple 'Thank you' on sms will do.

2) Pack table stuff.

3) Look for new tutee.

4) Come to a decision whether to commit myself to ZHSS guzheng alumni.

5) Prepare for putting on braces.

6) Prepare Christmas presents.

7) Start intensive exercise program.

8) Prepare myself for first day of CNY 2009 by numbing myself till the extent that if insults of me not knowing Hokkien come flying from relatives, I will not feel humiliated. I will just stay cool and easy.

9) Start intensive translation training.

10) Familiarize myself with Upper Sec Humanities syllables.

More to-dos in the to-do list to come. But that's about all for the must-do list so far.

Sometimes I just can't help feeling demoralised about life and the selfish people living it. Part of the reason why it hits me so hard is that I am one of the selfish bunch, only alot milder (this is not a self praise). The more I look at the supposedly kind people, the more I see their selfish nature protruding from their pretentious generous deeds like an odd broom sticking out from a clean, beautiful window. And the worst is they don't even care to pull the curtains. The only good thing about it is its reminder that my selfishness pales in comparison with their outstanding character. To Hell with them.

And I can't stand my grandmother anymore. She is just like the others. A bunch of heartless and sick-in-the-mind swindlers. This whole house is enveloped in invisible toxic dust and dirt attacking the lives of its inhabitants who truly wants to live. Just why don't they leave us alone?

I have never felt so pathetic. And I have never felt so sorry for them.


5:54 PM

"OH~ Those dark alluring eyes!"

(place back of right hand on forehead and faces 45deg skywards)

::faints::

5:49 PM



6:54 PM

The main protagonists, feuding presidents Paul Kagame of Rwanda and Joseph Kabila of the Democratic Republic of Congo, turned up but held no direct talks.

This is why it feels so wrong to correct our children when they mistake Africa as a country as they learn the continents of the world. It's like acknowledging the fact of division and continuing to etch it in the minds of our future generations. Pray hard that the future will change for the better.

11:35 PM

倒数是一种自杀也是一种刺激。它是每个人的命运，地球上六十亿人每天都在倒数。

最近组屋楼下白事一桩又一桩，唢呐喇叭锣鼓吹了一次又一次。那天偶然看到外婆又坐在客厅角落发呆，真不知道木木坐在那里听着外头‘白色恐怖’一片喧闹的老人家心里的感受如何。尤其是对于一个消极的老人来说，是怀着倒数的心态面对传入耳里的吡吡啵啵吗？还是不当一回事，继续做白日梦？

如果是我……我会什么也不说，去睡午觉。到了那把年纪，应该已经心里有数了吧。该来的总会来的，伤心、快乐，也不重要了。

可是真的很难说，到时候我可能又不这么想了。

是不是每样存在的事物都无法永久？

好害怕，因为好难放下。而其实我更害怕被放下。总是放不下心。

唉~ 不管了。麻木也是好的。现在该倒数的是下个星期的大考！7天~

8:34 PM



8:52 PM

这是在下雨之前听到的小品文。短短的几分钟，听完过后雨尽然也停了。原来天气也可以和一瞬间的思绪一样转得这么快。


他们都说谈恋爱的人就像小孩子一样。

小孩心里最放不下的就是眼前所看不到的。妈妈出门了，从身边离开了。眼睛看不到那个熟悉的背影就以为妈妈永远不见了，不再爱自己了。担心、伤心、害怕。完全没有安全感。结果哭啊……闹啊……等到妈妈回来了才能平复情绪。下一回一定又会一样，看不到就是不爱宝贝。就算妈妈每天晚上都会拍拍宝贝的屁屁让他睡得甜甜的，泡奶奶给宝贝喝，但是她一旦离开小脸蛋上那双大眼睛的视线，宝贝就会怕怕。妈妈会不会去拍拍别人的屁屁了？我要喝的奶奶呢？妈妈……快快回来……

现在的自己像不像当时的自己呢？

甜蜜了一天，各自告别离去。才离开不久，一见不到爱人心里就慌，想念起对方。

不在一起的时候他在做什么？过得还好吗？有没有吃饭？有没有好好睡觉？有没有想我？

这么久没有联络了，是不是发生什么事了？还是找到另外的他？不爱我了吗？怎么办？

看不到……心里会不安。

嗯……

可是看不到对方不代表他不爱你。他也在想你啊。就像你想他一样思念着自己的宝贝。

妈妈还是爱着宝宝的。不是吗？^__^

恋人们啊……真像小孩儿。

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no its never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

10:51 AM

I listen to my body's messages

"In this world of change, I choose to be flexible in all areas. I am willing to change myself and my beliefs to improve the quality of my life and my world. My body loves me in spite of how I may treat it. My body communicates with me, and I now listen to its messages. I am willing to get the message. I pay attention and make the necessary adjustments. I give my body what it needs on every level to bring it back to optimum health. I call upon an inner strength that is mine whenever I need it."

11:43 PM

The pain lessens when I see this. Till the extent that I feel numb.

Give me colours and brightness!